So I know that I'm getting close to having this baby, but I noticed that my baby ticker is in the single digits today and I actually got scared! I am so torn between wanting this baby out so that I don't have to pee every 15 minutes, but it's the kind of pee where I think I am going to pee my pants and then like 1 Tbs. of pee comes out, I want to be able to sleep at night, I want to be able to roll over in my bed and not have to be out of breath and have it take extreme effort to roll over, I want to have more than 4 shirts fit me and one pair of pants that I don't have to either rubberband the waist or have pulled all the way down under my belly, I want to be able to bend over, not have help putting on socks, walk without feeling like I am arched and about to do the limbo, and lots of other beautiful things that come with being pregnant. But at the same time I love feeling the baby move inside me, I love being able to wear whatever, look huge and not have to worry about looking fat because everyone knows that I am pregnant, I don't have to at the moment actually take care of the baby yet, I still have my hands free to wrangle in the other kids, I can still use the excuse that I can eat whatever I want because I'm pregnant, and other stuff.
Sorry for the rant, but I am just trying to get rid of some of my anxiety that I am finally starting to feel. I have been so consumed with Holidays and Birthdays and now that it's Kenyon's birthday today, this is my last thing that I had to check off before the baby could come. So now I have 9+ days to freak out about the baby coming..........
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